“You have somehow triggered something in me. I think a lot about Shibari, how beautiful it is, how I have experienced my own body in a completely new way, and I always have to smile and want to be tied up again. I also felt the aesthetic aspect of it very much. It’s not just being tied up. It is performing art and I somehow become a work of art.

You also told me a lot about myself. It made me understand what I want and what I don’t want. Yes, I am very fragile and people have broken me. Because I was looking for something that I thought those who broke me could give me. But that was wrong. You gave me what I was looking for. To be tied up, but in a beautiful atmosphere, very loving and careful and not to break anything of mine. To take advantage of being at your mercy, but not in a careless way, and to give support again afterwards at the latest, so that I don’t break. I cried with you again and again because I felt so good physically, but also because I could simply be with you. I can’t do that often. And also because I found what I was looking for and it was so overwhelmingly beautiful.”